Rolling with it.

 I do not have a religious leaning or a definable set of beliefs. I have many beliefs that have developed from experience and deep thought and consideration. The one thing I believe completely is that everything happens for a reason. Do I think it is part of a master plan or divine intervention? No. I kind of chalk it up to the laws of the universe, you know... like the law of motion, law of attraction, etc.

Lately I feel like Arnold Schwarzenegger is messing with my law of the universe. I've been sitting back and watching Schwarzenegger cut 10% from education in California, along with other government funded areas of the budget. Doesn't he consider me when he does this?! One of the reasons we moved to NYC is because CA wasn't hiring teachers, they had too many. We thought we could come out here for three years and wait for the teacher hiring pendulum to swing back in our favor. Now it feels more like the pendulum is just going to make a full circle instead of swinging back. It is a little scary to think that outside beings are controlling my future and the future of where our family settles. Arizona has always been a very close second choice for us so all is not lost, but it isn't the same as being near our families.

For the first time in my life I feel myself in a foreign situation. My life has no set plan. I don't know where we will be after the summer of 2009. This is dangerous for a girl who is so planned she doesn't pee without referring to her blackberry first. 

Some girls feel out of control when they gain weight, other girls feel out of control when they lose their job, go through a divorce, can't stop eating the ice cream in the freezer- that yummy somoa Girl Scout cookie kind. Me? I feel like I am on a rollercoaster with no harness when I don't have a set plan. 

So this is new to me. I have decided I am going to embrace this new rebellious and spontaneous me and roll with it. Do I have a choice? No. So I am going to make it look like this new situation is my plan. Hee hee. My plan is to roll with it, like a dog rolls in the grass- pure delight. Wish me (and Kevin for living with me) luck.